Have you ever arrived late to a party, or anything in general? Not me. I am always either early or just on time. It is physically impossible for me to be late. Well, there is one exception. There is one big party in particular...the dating party.
Yeah you heard me. The dating party. It's a thing, I think. Well, I wouldn't know if it was, because I still haven't arrived. I have the directions in my hands. I'm turning left and suddenly making a sharp right, then there's this big scary fork in the road, what's that about? No matter which direction I take I always seem to end up at a dead end. But how? Why? I followed the directions precisely. I took everything in to consideration and I did everything right! I still end up lost. How can this be when my directions were written out perfectly, because they were written by a perfect creator? The Creator.
"God's timing is perfect!" I know it is.
"You just need to pray about it!" I've prayed so much my hands are numb.
"You just need to be patient!" I literally could not be more chill.
"It'll happen when you least expect it!" So, when I'm dead?
I'm not bitter, I promise! But I've come to this point where I think I am so ready to start this new journey and God seems to have other plans. What do you do when you've seemingly done everything right and followed all the rules and still...zilch...nada...
God's timing is perfect. "Commit your way to the LORD; trust in him and he will do this: He will make your righteousness shine like the dawn, the justice of your cause like the noonday sun. Be still before the LORD and wait patiently for him; do not fret when men succeed in their ways, when they carry out their wicked schemes." Psalm 37:5-7. It's kind of hard, being the last of my friends who still hasn't had even one boyfriend, but I know God's got this. I actually don't even need to worry about it at all because none of it is in MY hands! God put down my path before me and he only asks me to follow him whole heartedly. I know that following Him now is way more satisfying than trying to pursue anything this world could give me.
I just need to pray about it. "Peace I leave with you; my peace I give to you. Not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your hearts be troubled, neither let them be afraid." John 14:27. This part can be hard for me, but it actually becomes a lot easier when I don't make it about me. I pray for him, whoever he is. I pray that wherever he is, whatever he may be doing, that he's focused on God and making Him happy first. Okay, I may slip in a few requests that hopefully he's not flirting with other girls, has a passion for British comedies and has a thing for girls with dark brown eyes and a sparkling personality! I pray for us. That when the time comes we find each other and that it's good.
I just need to be more patient. "And let us not grow weary of doing good, for in due season we will reap, if we do not give up." Galatians 6:9. I have seasons of patience. I have times where I do really good and times I do really bad. Most days I'm really good, thank the Lord. I know that my worth and identity is found in Christ and I am content with that. But some days, some days I can tear myself to shreds. "Maybe if you were prettier this wouldn't be a problem." "Maybe if you were thinner, guys would ask you out." "Maybe if you were a better Christian, God would bring you someone now." It's okay to have bad seasons, so long as you remember in the end that God made you in his image. He made you perfectly. Patience is hard and it's taken me a LONG time to get to where I am today, but waiting on patience is well worth the...wait...you get it.
When I least expect it, that's when it'll happen. "But he said, 'What is impossible with man is possible with God.'” Luke 18:27. “Behold, I am the Lord, the God of all flesh. Is anything too hard for me?" Jeremiah 32:27. My life has become a lot about me lately. What is it that I can do to fix my life? What can I do to make my life better? The answer is nothing. I can't do anything, only He can. When I take my eyes away from the world and focus them on Christ, that's when things become clear as day. That's when you recognize good things He brings into your life.
I have the directions in my hands. I start to take a few steps forward. Stop. Actually, I think I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be.
To be continued.
Yeah you heard me. The dating party. It's a thing, I think. Well, I wouldn't know if it was, because I still haven't arrived. I have the directions in my hands. I'm turning left and suddenly making a sharp right, then there's this big scary fork in the road, what's that about? No matter which direction I take I always seem to end up at a dead end. But how? Why? I followed the directions precisely. I took everything in to consideration and I did everything right! I still end up lost. How can this be when my directions were written out perfectly, because they were written by a perfect creator? The Creator.
"God's timing is perfect!" I know it is.
"You just need to pray about it!" I've prayed so much my hands are numb. "You just need to be patient!" I literally could not be more chill.
"It'll happen when you least expect it!" So, when I'm dead?
I'm not bitter, I promise! But I've come to this point where I think I am so ready to start this new journey and God seems to have other plans. What do you do when you've seemingly done everything right and followed all the rules and still...zilch...nada...
God's timing is perfect. "Commit your way to the LORD; trust in him and he will do this: He will make your righteousness shine like the dawn, the justice of your cause like the noonday sun. Be still before the LORD and wait patiently for him; do not fret when men succeed in their ways, when they carry out their wicked schemes." Psalm 37:5-7. It's kind of hard, being the last of my friends who still hasn't had even one boyfriend, but I know God's got this. I actually don't even need to worry about it at all because none of it is in MY hands! God put down my path before me and he only asks me to follow him whole heartedly. I know that following Him now is way more satisfying than trying to pursue anything this world could give me.
I just need to pray about it. "Peace I leave with you; my peace I give to you. Not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your hearts be troubled, neither let them be afraid." John 14:27. This part can be hard for me, but it actually becomes a lot easier when I don't make it about me. I pray for him, whoever he is. I pray that wherever he is, whatever he may be doing, that he's focused on God and making Him happy first. Okay, I may slip in a few requests that hopefully he's not flirting with other girls, has a passion for British comedies and has a thing for girls with dark brown eyes and a sparkling personality! I pray for us. That when the time comes we find each other and that it's good.
I just need to be more patient. "And let us not grow weary of doing good, for in due season we will reap, if we do not give up." Galatians 6:9. I have seasons of patience. I have times where I do really good and times I do really bad. Most days I'm really good, thank the Lord. I know that my worth and identity is found in Christ and I am content with that. But some days, some days I can tear myself to shreds. "Maybe if you were prettier this wouldn't be a problem." "Maybe if you were thinner, guys would ask you out." "Maybe if you were a better Christian, God would bring you someone now." It's okay to have bad seasons, so long as you remember in the end that God made you in his image. He made you perfectly. Patience is hard and it's taken me a LONG time to get to where I am today, but waiting on patience is well worth the...wait...you get it.
When I least expect it, that's when it'll happen. "But he said, 'What is impossible with man is possible with God.'” Luke 18:27. “Behold, I am the Lord, the God of all flesh. Is anything too hard for me?" Jeremiah 32:27. My life has become a lot about me lately. What is it that I can do to fix my life? What can I do to make my life better? The answer is nothing. I can't do anything, only He can. When I take my eyes away from the world and focus them on Christ, that's when things become clear as day. That's when you recognize good things He brings into your life.
I have the directions in my hands. I start to take a few steps forward. Stop. Actually, I think I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be.
To be continued.
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